*the entry's gonna abt my feelings and emotions.. think its gonna be long.. read only if ur interested or i think it'll bore you!! *


PROJECTS are KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

arGHHHH..

on monday i went to the doc to get an mc for a class i missed or else i would be debarred.

guess what??? i told her i had frequent headaches the past few daes (which was true).. complained that i had many late nights due to projects...

she told me lie down, checked my joints and muscles.. around my neck.. and guess what she told me??

she said i'm too stressed!!! haha.. she prescribed 'muscle relaxants' to me!!! oh man... can u imagine???

so im on medication!!

oh u guys know what??? i chatted over msn with edward last nght, and he was telling me about this girl and him.

this girl happened to be a close friend of mine when i was with edward.

fortunately, he told me that she'll never be with her.

cause her ass's not good enough for him i guess!!! haha ;)

he told me how the girl cuddled up with him on the bus... like WTF??? right??? BITCHY SLUTY... argHHHhH...

i mean..ok..u guys like each other.. but... why are u throwing urself at him?? nAH BEyYY..

one way or another, i was realli realli jealous about it when he told me.... and i think its a bad sign.. i think my life's getting even more complicted than it is already...

we chatted abt alot of stuff.. abt me and him.. and questions like 'will he ever want me back??' haha... he said 'maybe'..then he changed it 'no, i guess'...sighs...

ive been seeing him in school these past few days... tell you. he's so good looking... haha..kinda miss the securtiy he gives with his arms around me.. :( man.. i feel like crying...

somehow whne iw as chatting with him abt all these stuff.. memories came back..i felt soooo mean to him.. like he didnt do anything wrong that made him deserve what i did to him..

im not saying that because i cant have jake now tt's why i regret. its not like that..

having something with jake was somethng that i will not regret.

but breaking off with edward was kinda wasted.

my life is fucked up. period.